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Tired of...well, everything.
Posted 11-16-2009 at 07:07 PM by Bakuri
Ever stop to wonder what direction your life is taking? Ever cross a twisty path that you couldn't make out when you did? That's quite the common problem, isn't it?
What do you do when you look forward, and don't see anything?
I've just been so bored recently. Bored of the internet, bored of games, bored of books, bored of school, bored of - everything! The thought of finding something else to do, bores me. I was even at the point that I was bored of singing today - I had been singing a song for one of my friends out of randomness, and I suddenly stopped, shrugged, and said "eh, I'm bored." She gave me the weirdest look, because I've never, EVER been bored of singing.
I'm just overall bored with my whole life. And y'know what? I'm tired of being bored. Does that mean I'm tired of living? I dunno, really. People ask me, "How was your weekend?" What do I respond to that? "Eh, kinda boring. Just the usual - sat around the house playing video games and talkin to some people online - maybe read a chapter or two in my book." Wow, how lame does THAT sound?
It's gotten to the point that I can't read a book without wanting to slip into the pages (which isn't helped by the fact that I'm currently reading a book series about that very topic - people who are able to slip into books. <3 Inkheart). I can't watch an anime without imagining what it'd be like with just ONE more character - me. I can't talk to my friends without wishing, if just for a day, that I could be them. I want something - anything - to be different from the norm. But hey, what's there to do? For one thing, my town sucks and has nothing interesting - for another, everything that IS fun to do either costs money I don't have, or is something I either can't or don't want to do. (And by that, I mean like, bad stuff.)
It kinda sucks, too. I can't hang out with my friends much to ward off boredom. My best friend lives too far away, and it's too hard to set up when we can hang out - her mom likes to plan in advance, while mine likes to wait until the last minute. My other good friend is either always busy, or only wants to talk about her boyfriend, or just....Eh, sometimes I just don't like talking to her. Let's just say, she's not exactly the best kind of person to be around. As far as my other friends go, they're really just the kind of friends you talk to at school, but never beyond that.
Kinda sucks, really. I'm about to be 16, and I can't have a Sweet Sixteen party. Mostly because, if I did, it'd suck because nobody would show up.
I've been an attention whore at school lately. Gotten to the point that I've forced myself to be depressed at times in the hopes that someone would take pity on me and come talk to me, but nobody even notices. And then sitting at lunch or in class and watching everyone joke around and be with their friends just bugs me, because I can't do the same.
TL;DR attention-whoring blogs ftw. *nods*
What do you do when you look forward, and don't see anything?
I've just been so bored recently. Bored of the internet, bored of games, bored of books, bored of school, bored of - everything! The thought of finding something else to do, bores me. I was even at the point that I was bored of singing today - I had been singing a song for one of my friends out of randomness, and I suddenly stopped, shrugged, and said "eh, I'm bored." She gave me the weirdest look, because I've never, EVER been bored of singing.
I'm just overall bored with my whole life. And y'know what? I'm tired of being bored. Does that mean I'm tired of living? I dunno, really. People ask me, "How was your weekend?" What do I respond to that? "Eh, kinda boring. Just the usual - sat around the house playing video games and talkin to some people online - maybe read a chapter or two in my book." Wow, how lame does THAT sound?
It's gotten to the point that I can't read a book without wanting to slip into the pages (which isn't helped by the fact that I'm currently reading a book series about that very topic - people who are able to slip into books. <3 Inkheart). I can't watch an anime without imagining what it'd be like with just ONE more character - me. I can't talk to my friends without wishing, if just for a day, that I could be them. I want something - anything - to be different from the norm. But hey, what's there to do? For one thing, my town sucks and has nothing interesting - for another, everything that IS fun to do either costs money I don't have, or is something I either can't or don't want to do. (And by that, I mean like, bad stuff.)
It kinda sucks, too. I can't hang out with my friends much to ward off boredom. My best friend lives too far away, and it's too hard to set up when we can hang out - her mom likes to plan in advance, while mine likes to wait until the last minute. My other good friend is either always busy, or only wants to talk about her boyfriend, or just....Eh, sometimes I just don't like talking to her. Let's just say, she's not exactly the best kind of person to be around. As far as my other friends go, they're really just the kind of friends you talk to at school, but never beyond that.
Kinda sucks, really. I'm about to be 16, and I can't have a Sweet Sixteen party. Mostly because, if I did, it'd suck because nobody would show up.
I've been an attention whore at school lately. Gotten to the point that I've forced myself to be depressed at times in the hopes that someone would take pity on me and come talk to me, but nobody even notices. And then sitting at lunch or in class and watching everyone joke around and be with their friends just bugs me, because I can't do the same.
TL;DR attention-whoring blogs ftw. *nods*
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lol I'm tired of LIFE.... school is not on my mind but my vacation in 6 weeks. :P
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Don't worry Kuri, I'D Show up
 I'll talk to you during the week in the mornings about this >_> |
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aww
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<3 InkHeart and InkSpell.
Its kinda hard to help someone whose pretty much in this state of boredom. I rarely get bored with anything. |
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Oh well. I'm kinda bored myself but I do things I usually do anyways. It maybe boring but it least pass the time. Sometimes...no wait I mean all the time I keep waiting or trying to think anything I could do that's interesting. Anything at all. Heck I even wan't horror weather to come by at least but no nothing interesting happens. I'm just hoping if I have enough money (over $2000 omg!) I can go to a japan tour for the fun.
For school...nothing. I can't hang with my friends cause they don't hang where they used to be anymore. They mostly hang out of campus during lunch to get food from Carl's Jr or In n out. My boredom does nothing but thinking of "what will happen..." and I image or feel how it will end. Only thing pass the time for school to me is only talking to my brother's friends, listen to music, read or sleep. I don't talk to people so much so I just listen to them what they are talking about. And whenever I don't talk much people keep asking me "why I don't talk or say one word most of the time" as of results...*cough* no repond. No jokes hardly make me laugh ._. They make jokes or do anything funny and no reaction. My life is full of boredom but not much of complains of it. I just go on with whatever what people are talking about |
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Updated 11-16-2009 at 11:19 PM by Kevi |
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If it makes ya feel better, I'm gonna sit by myself at lunch now. They switched my lunch shift. I'm in the lame one now, and I know pretty much nobody in that one. D:
Life isn't boring. You just have to do something so awsum that you'll be wondering how the hell you pulled it off. It works, trust me. ;D |
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I was thinking about making a blog for people who are depressed.
Might post it this weekend. Just hang in there, and stay positive. |
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I tend to drift in between the same feelings a lot, sometimes it lasts a while, happy for one day, then it goes, and comes this feeling again.
I don't pay it much notice, really, since I honestly wouldn't know how to deal at this point in time, since there's too much to stress about. Y'know, if everyone else was "too good" to show up to your party, I'd break that stupidity and show up. Either way, its just a phase, it'll go. You shouldn't be down about the little stuff, there's plenty for you to be proud of that could/should keep you happy. You're smart and funny, and a generally good person. I'd think that being all of that, people wouldn't be too good to show up to something as important as your 16th. Anyways, I speak nonsense, but eh, hope things go well and hope these really obnoxious feelings go away. |
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Like GreenThunder said, it really is a phase that a lot of people go through, so you're definitely not the only one who feels that way. I recommend listening to some good music and just focus on schoolwork. Remember to always stay positive and keep moving forward and you'll be fine.
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